Homicide

Airing through the night,
Thinking of the future fright,
I could feel the sweat,
Tripping and making me wet,
The roof looked an end point,
And I felt an ache in every point,
Suffocation, frustration,
Have turned me stone-hearted,
I could take it no more,
Visualized a picture full of gore,
Its not a suicide,
Its my homicide!!

Decided to take the initial step,
And abandoned my worldly rep,
Blew the air, full of grief and sigh,
The memory of my dear mother flashed by,
My heart stopped, chest choked,
It was not the life I had hoped,
Its not a suicide,
Its my homicide!!

When will I find an answer to my miseries,
My blood and mind, deep-freezed,
Things are different in the darkness,
The situation is giving me chillness,
My soul cries, tears dont fall,
But inside, there's an icefall,
Emotions have died,
Sick and tired,
Its not a suicide,
Its my homicide!!!